O Captain! My Captain!

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O Captain! My Captain! our fearful trip is done;

The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won;
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring:

But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

O Captain! My Captain! rise up and hear the bells;
Rise up—for you the flag is flung—for you the bugle trills;
For you bouquets and ribbon’d wreaths—for you the shores a-crowding;
For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning;

Here captain! dear father!
This arm beneath your head;
It is some dream that on the deck,
You’ve fallen cold and dead.

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still;
My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will;
The ship is anchor’d safe and sound, its voyage closed and done;
From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won;

Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells!
But I, with mournful tread,
Walk the deck my captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

-Walt Whitman 1865


This past Monday, a great man passed away. My idol, Robin Williams, is no longer here. All that remains are the movies with which I grew up, the many characters he played that inspired me and my generation to follow our dreams and embrace our unique selves.  We were artists of different creeds, but our goals were quite similar. He loved to make people laugh, to entertain them. He touched many lives and in his films he made a huge impact on the people who watched them, and to a young me who was a bit different from others, who wanted different things from many of her classmates and family members, they stuck with me for a long time.  I too hope to one day inspire people, touch their lives in some way, and leave my mark upon the world. I aspire to be like this man who I never met, but whose influence kept me going.

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I know I share the pain and sorrow that everyone else feels, as if I’ve lost an Uncle who I rarely ever saw but who I cheered for on the sidelines. It was one of my childhood dreams to meet him, see his standup live, perhaps even a chance to work with him if my comics or stories were ever adapted into movies. But this weekend will be spent watching the movies I loved most, and playing Ocarina of Time probably won’t be the same without thinking of his daughter Zelda and her family. To be honest, finding out that he loved the Zelda games made me feel even cooler~!

But since my chance has passed, I will leave this here as evidence, in his honor.

Dear Robin Williams,

I have no personal stories to share. I have no mahogany desk to stand upon, no candle to light on your behalf, and I have no heart felt wisdom and wit to offer. But I have one portrait of a madman who once told me “You’re only given one spark of madness. You musn’t lose it”.  I have learned in this past week how generous a man you were; how kind, how loved.  And I wish you could have seen the amount of appreciation and admiration your fans, friends, and family had for you. Though you did not know me or my family, you brought so much laughter and light into our lives. I hope that wherever you are now, you see that, and you can finally be free.

Depression is real. Mental Illness is real. Even though the world had to lose a wonderful person just to see that, it is a lot smaller now that you are gone.

O Captain! My Captain!

Rest in peace, old friend.

 

 

MCM Expo 2014

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Hi there, internet!  I am blogging again!

So, a couple weeks ago I came back from England, where I attended my first overseas comic expo!  It was really cool, there were tons of vendors, gaming, and cosplayers! There were tons of great artists in the artist alley too! I meant to do a solid review of it once I had come back, but time got away from me. Maybe next time!

So for now, have some photos of cosplayers that I took!

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One of my friends cosplayed as a character from Journey!

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 There were quite a few great Zeldas too!

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Along with centers where you could line up to play upcoming games, there was a booth where a local animation school was showcasing work they had done for movies. They had a demo reel and that cool looking guy there!

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  As for the others, there were a few Jacks, a couple Toothless, but I only saw one Hiccup.

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Probably the best SnK cosplayers I’ve seen at a con yet.

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Jamie Hewlett… I see your art there!!!

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Dennis (my fiance) hangs out with the 7th Doctor~

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  I was pretty excited to see a lot of Vocaloid cosplayers as well, but not more excited to see them than I was to see my favorite character, No Face.

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There were a lot of great artists as well. They were all very professional and we had some good chats with a few of them. I collected a lot of prints and business cards, and we bought a few comics as well. I was very inspired by their effort and their skill.

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Overall I had a great time! I was a bit overwhelmed by the crowds of people, and there was so much to look at that I kept re-tracing my steps to see what else was around. Most cons I am used to attending different panels and events, but this expo was made up of everything I was looking for. So, naturally I made sure to visit as many booths as possible. Hopefully one year I’ll be able to have a table there as well.

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That’s it from me!  じゃね See you guys again soon!

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